Great things to come

Well, not sure if anyone reads this or not, but at least it is a good way to share what is going on in my life. My wonderful husband has managed once again to get an even better job. For the last 9 years he has moved from being a high-voltage electrician, to an inside electrician, to working as a civil engineer with the Corp, to now being a part of energy conservation on the military base. Granted all these jobs have been with the government as a civil employee, but he is slowly climbing that ladder and I couldn't be more proud.

As far as our little angel (yea right), he is doing good and growing like crazy. Sharing seems to be our issue at the moment, but that is to be expected when he is an only child and never around kids his age. Well, he is never around kids period. His immune system is still so low, we try to keep him away from people other than family. He is finally putting more words together, and says something new and shocking on a daily basis. I couldn't be more happy than right now.

On the second TTC front, that is on a hold since I had to have a cyst removed back on August. We will see where that will go in a month or two.

That's all for now, God bless all.

A little history about me.

Cody and I got married in the spring of 2004, and started right away to start our family. With no luck, we were sent to a RE and went through a very trying time. Not being able to have a baby on your own is not only heartbreaking but also puts a lot of stress on you. The doctor we seen then diagnosed me with PCOS. We went through 1 year of Clomid, on and off. With Clomid you have to do 6 months on and 6 off, with having blood work and ultrasound every month. After no results we decided to take a emotional break. In December 2005, we started going to another doctor. She placed me back on Clomid at the lowest dosage and with plenty of prayers and hope, it worked. I got pg and had my miracle baby in September 2006, 4 weeks early. Little did I know, Clomid causes you to have a low birth weight baby (IUGR), high blood pressure, and several mood swings. I can actually say I was a royal bitch when on the stuff. But after that it was well worth it. The pregnancy was horrible, I had to be put on bed rest due to my BP and PE, Jak wasn't gaining and neither was I. But the sad thing is I would do it all over again. Needless to say, after the delivery, the doc gave me 2 years to try and have another baby. There is so much damage, she didn't want to wait any longer than that to take everything out. Needless to say, I did another 2 years of Clomid, blood work and this time she never did ultrasounds. Which I find confusing. Now, here is the good part. This month I went and seen a new doctor that was amazing. Her knowledge with PCOS is amazing and very helpful. I found out that after having one child with clomid, that it is very unlikely to have another. The last 2 years were a waste and now I have to start all over. But this time with something new. She put me on 5mgs of Femara a day. I had never heard of this med so when I got home I had to do some research. Another test is being ran because she thinks that I am Insulin resistant. This just means more meds to help through that. So I have found that this medication normally works with just a few tries if not the first go around. The only side effects to it are hot flashes and migraines (which is going to be horrible with the migraines I already get.) Which would be amazing, but then again meds don't just work. You have to do your fair share to God to get a reward. If it is my time to have another then so be it. I would love to be able to hold a little one again, but if I can't, I understand. No matter what I am thankful for what I got and would never trade my experience with anyone. I also found out that from what she can tell without doing major test, I have endometriosis. This cannot be for sure until I have a major test done. The good thing is there are ways to treat and help with the pain, unlike it was 20 years ago when my mom had it. But the good thing is I am still good to go with trying for another miracle child. After I have one more then we will work on the other problem. For those of you that don't know EN can cause you not to be able to get pg. I pray that I am able to carry at least one more. Not to mention that other women that are trying to maybe learn from what I have gone through and will know the right steps if they are having problems. There is nothing like holding that little one the first time and I long to be able to again. There are so many women out there that have babies to just give them away or to get rid of them all together. There is a such thing called BC, they need to use it. I am like many other women out there that long to have that baby, and sit here and watch what some women do with theirs. It kills me every time I hear that someone has killed or injured a child. All I ask is that everyone keep me and my family in your prayers as we head down the long road again, and while you are at it pray for the families that are going through this too. Not to mention the horrible people out there that give away, injure and even kill their children. They are the ones that need a prayer the most. I will update as we get new information, but I am started all my new meds on June 2nd. Only time will tell.

I started Provera 10mgs for 10 days. I am now on day 13 with no results, which is odd for me. It normally works within the first 4 days. But time will tell.